Maybe I Will Never Be Who I Was Before

Maybe I don't even know her anymore, Maybe who I am today ain't so far from yesterday...
I really wish people would realize that. I am the same person I have always been. Maybe I grew up and grew a pair and started standing up for myself sometimes and going for what I want but I am the same person I have always been. I may not be with the guy that everyone wants me to be with but I am with the guy that makes me happy. Shouldn't that be enough for everyone. I know I am happy and I wish other people would be happy for me.
I know his past might not be perfect but who's is? Certainly no one I know. Why can't people just leave the past in the past and move on. Everyone says give it time, give it time. Well how much time is enough? Because it's already been a good amount of time and no one seems to budge on their opinions. Opinions that I love by the way... "He's only out for himself and I don't like him and don't want to be around him" really well thats funny considering you had no problem being around him before. So my question is, were you putting up with him for my ex or did you not have a problem with him before? And if thats the case, what is your problem with him now? If it's because you think he broke up my last relationship, that can't be more far from the truth. No matter what you think, that relationship was headed for failure either way. And if you think he is going to "take what he wants from me and leave me" guess what, he got what he wanted and he's still here, he's been here for a pretty long time now and I don't think he's going anywhere.
People might wonder where this is coming from. I guess it's coming from the fact that apparently I have to watch my back and watch my step around everyone. What I say to one person may just make it across the country an hour later. It's kind of nuts actually. I hate drama, I dont want to be a part of it. If people are talking about me and comparing notes about me, fine. I just don't care to know about it. Just leave me in my own little bubble.
I know I am slipping away from family but it's not for lack of trying and it's not over some stupid crush. I guess the point I'm trying to make in all of this is he loves me, I love him, you love me, I love you. Why not TRY to get along and make things easier on me and let me be completely happy?